A place to record my thoughts and feelings and dig a little deeper into who I really am.
I'm a beginner at card making and hope my craft gives others pleasure. I create to keep myself from wigging out as I wait for a double transplant. Thank you for joining me.
This evening I've been tired. I spent the afternoon in emergency with two IVs and very low blood pressure. Thankfully it rose enough that I could come home. Rather than make a card I tried my hand at digital imaging - making a header for the new Facebook design. I think it turned out pretty well. So maybe tomorrow. I did try and sync a new cartridge to my Gypsy and could figure out which plug went where.
Tomorrow, besides having dialysis, I have a rep from CCAC, my personal support worker and a physiotherapist. Plan on tiredness except the treatment after a 2 day break may perk me up.
Kennedy loves to go to playgrounds and his favourite thing is the slide.
This morning I dressed in a woolly sweater and WALKED onto my deck. Then the girls brought Kennedy out for the first sight of the new swing set. His face was radiant as he ran to his very own slide. He shouted "Thanks, Mom" and that was it - he played on his new equipment until he was almost asleep with the fresh air and exercise.
I had a disappointment tonight. The girls wheeled me to my new craft area and I chose some paper and formulated a plan for a card. I then totally lost my steam. My head drooped and I barely had the energy to turn off my Gypsy. How disappointing. I will try again tomorrow, earlier in the day. It sucks to be so weak and dizzy that I can't even make a card. At least I have my supplies ready to go and maybe I'll conquer it tomorrow.
Boy, am I tired this evening. I can't get much done before I flop.
My personal care worker bathed me and then did a little light housekeeping for me this morning.
My daughters took me to lunch at a restaurant I used to enjoy all the time but it was hard. I had to use the wheelchair and found it hard to eat like I used to. I have chicken legs and arms now. It looks so frail.
I felt exhausted after lunch but we needed to run a couple of errands. The first was to get a prescription of Lyrica. I'm in constant pain. I have taken one a couple of hours ago and it's helping!
I was nearly in tears, but I hung on and went to a hairstylist and had my hair washed and blown dry.
Simple day, but for me an ordeal. I'm thinking positively about tomorrow since I am now getting pain relief.
Lastly, my family agrees the contents of my craft room should come upstairs for now, so I'm really happy.
I hope everyone is happily crafting and feeling the best.
I'm back home. I'm really too tired to post. I'll just say I'm going through an ordeal. I'm suspended from the transplant list and my spirits are down. I will write more another day.
Thank you all for your kind posts. It means so much. I will get back on the active list as soon as I can walk and that day is coming. Although I am nervous, I have begun walking with a roll-a-tor. Physically I have as clean a bill of health as can be, so just strength and balance is needed. I have daily health care workers and lots of prayer!
About 15 minutes ago I shouted out to my household "My pager is going off" Everybody flew to my side and waited excitedly as I dialed the number provided. What a disappointment to discover it was a wrong number - some silly sales call. Oh well, call it a dry run for when it really goes off for real,
Now for a little bit of good news. The government approved me for Cicepride. It's a powerful anti-nauseant that is restricted. I've been on it for a week now and it appears to be okay. My pharmacy has to pick it up from the hospital so that's a pain for them but they're doing it and I'm happy to be on it. Let's see if it continues to give me relief.
I missed Thanksgiving (Canadian) but hope to catch up with my daughter's help this weekend. I hope any of you who are Canadian enjoyed your long weekend.
I`m a little bit excited about two things. First of all, I found 3 cartridges I want for a good price on Ebay. Flower Shoppe, Limited Edition Thanksgiving and Joys of the Season. I`m not a fan of Halloween but I have plenty of ideas for Thanksgiving and Christmas. I have been wishing for Flower Shoppe since it came out and the seller had a new packaged cart for $24. Wahoo!!
I'm also excited to share the news that Just Wordz is releasing two more stamp sets - Christmas Season and Party Time. More mix ' n' match sentiments. These are just in time for all of our holiday cards. I'm super excited to be getting both sets. Go and check out the announcement. Yay Kimberly!!
Hi everyone. It's been awhile, I know. I'm almost recuperated from my last stay in hospital and hope to spend time in my craft room as early as tomorrow. My husband brought me a treat (maybe to motivate me) tonight. He gave me a good sized white enamel clock with pale butterflies on the face. He said it's specifically for my craft room and it's "me". I love it!
Tonight I'd like to remind anyone who may be thinking of donating to Alison's Angels for the kidney walk, the walk is this coming Saturday. To anyone who does wish to make a donation just click on the links in this paragraph and you can donate online. And a deep heartfelt thanks if you do. In fact I'll bet all the kidney patients would want to thank you for caring.
So, hopefully, I'll be back with a card or three by the end of this week.
This card is for my best friends 10th anniversary this week. Shelly and Cory were married in the side garden of my home and we held the reception around the pool. It was very laid back as we had a picnic barbeque. Now they have two amazing children, a Delorean, and are building their own home. Good stuff!
I was unable to make it to the crop. I thought about everyone there and what they would be doing - but I just could not get myself going. I have been losing alot of weight and am still having issues with low blood pressure. Adjusting medication has not helped
Part of end stage renal failure is the feeling of isolation. Most people are lovely offering support and prayers. My true friends haven more than proven themselves. And then there is the guy next door. We were outside chatting and I made mention of waiting for my transplant surgery because then I could get back to gardening. Mr. Sensitivity replies that lots of people of problems Alison - I need knee surgery sometime soon. I kept my composure and told him I thought it was terrible for him to go through that, and then got myself back inside the house where I shook my head quite a few times in disbelief. I WISH a bum knee was my problem. What a jerk!
Heheh - thanks for letting me rant on that one. Honestly!
I found these chairs awhile back from The Graphics Fairy and knew what to do with them. I have just been so tired I have not managed to make much of anything. Besides making this simple little card, I figured out how to use Nestabilities - so a card with those will be next. One card at a time is all I have energy for right now.
I spoke to the Transplant Coordinator at the Toronto General today and she was very surprised at my large weight loss. I`m not. It`s not Weight Watchers - it`s my almost total lack of interest in food or drink. I really mean it when I say all I want to do is sleep.
I`m praying for enough energy for tomorrow to drop in to the crop for a couple of hours.
This post is a bit hard for me to make, but it's not just for me, but for all the kidney patients like myself. On Saturday September 17th, 2011 my city is hosting "Give the Gift of Life" and my family and friends have formed a walking team called "Alison's Angels" Although I personally cannot walk well enough to participate as a walker, I will be there as a volunteer as my team - including little Kennedy walks on my behalf. This event is for research, etc, and also organ donation. Please visit my fundraising page here if you feel it on your heart to donate to The Kidney Foundation. The thousands of kidney patients you read about all have a face and a wish to live, just like me.
Today I used the little hedgehog from the Live Simply cartridge. No message or meaning to that other than I thought it was a cute critter. The banner message is simply one of the truest things I can put on a card. I'm having a rather positive day. Yes, I've been counting my blessings and they are many! Even little things like a parking spot near the hospital doors today. I saw my family doctor today and although his role in my kidney journey is really that of an observer, he had some very encouraging words for me. I met my hairdresser and her sister at the hospital and they reminded me to have someone call them when I finally go because they'd like to visit with my mom and help her worry a little less. So thoughtful of them. Simple kindnesses mean so much.
I hope you've all found some little blessings to be thankful for today.
Another card from the crop. I just fell in love with the papers. I can't wait to go back and choose some of their beautiful autumn and Christmas papers for upcoming projects.
I've been too tired all weekend to unpack my stuff from Friday. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get down there. I want to play with my new Nestabilities as well.
Right now I'm watching Mama Mia with the kids. After that I'll sit and pay bills for awhile and then I can have a guilt free day tomorrow and indulge in the crafts. I`ve been day dreaming about what my days will be like post surgery. I`ll have the energy to keep on goin`. There are a few activities from my past that I miss and that I`d like to enjoy again. I keep my focus on the positive by thinking of doing them again. The great part is, I now have card making as well. Even these down times are good for things like this.
I hope you have all enjoyed your weekends. Happy crafting.
I was a crop virgin until today. Yes, I finally attended a crop, thanks to Kimberly at Just Wordz. I enjoyed myself and came home with a few new cards as well as some new bling 'n' such.
I alone, arrived with my gear stashed in 2 recyclable grocery bags. Every other lady there had fancy dancy storage totes. I was okay with that. My bags cost $1.99 each and obviously theirs were out of the stratosphere. Nothing comes cheap for a scrap booking purist.
Well, as luck would have it I was seated beside a very friendly lady who whispered to me to check out the crop luggage on sale at Fabric Land. She said it was much cheaper than at our store. Yup. I was lured in. I made a pit stop on the way home from the crop and picked up not one but two different styles of craft bags. Come ON, they were on SALE! And I`m sure I need my grocery bags for groceries.
Yesterday my friend Kristen got her new kidney and she has already stood and walked a little. Kristen is years younger than me and I cannot imagine how awful it must have been for such a young woman to suffer the things I have suffered. She was sick and on dialysis for 3 long years. You really don't know how you can go on and survive. Sometimes its not day by day but moment by moment.
I am crying with happiness for her and cant stop looking at her photo, which was taken today!
I actually don not want anyone to call me. I am just so bone weary tired I would be speechless. The past week has been brutal for lack of energy. I start to do something and before I am done I collapse. I wonder how much longer I can hang on.
Oh yeah, there IS someone I want to call me. The transplant coordinator! That is the one call I really want.
Time to slide between the sheets again. Happy hump day and happy crafting!